paperjam

grow up? we’ve grown far. grown far apart.

I never was too in love with you. I’m a fool for flashy things.

I have mad respect for the girlfriends. the girls who put up with all the bullshit and keep the title at the end of the day. the “independent” card isn’t nearly as strong as the “I’m happy and in love card” and though I know there are the days when their boyfriends treat them like utter shit, they still manage to stay somewhat composed and handle the situations calmly. it seems weak of women to take someone back after betrayal or cheating, but I think it’s their ability to understand human error that makes them strong. people fuck up. 

I like to pretend I’m all tough and bad, but the accountability to one person scares the shit out of me. I cannot fathom the amount of vulnerability it would take for me to feel that strongly for someone, then the thought if something happened to them? I feel weak. 

props to the girls who can commit, I’ll find the courage one day.