just in time.
do I regret a thing? no. do I wish I were happier? everyday. I miss you like fucking crazy and I guess my pride is fit enough to say that now. In my head it was always the relationship I wanted it to be, when you slapped a label on it and dressed it up the way you wanted to, I ran. wah. I loved talking to my babies, they help me think. bonding time with people was dearly needed. I need to move...
the correct term for multiple virus’ might be viri, but that just sounds weird. however that’s not what I wanted to get at, so nevermind. I was reading Tina’s post about a virus on her laptop, and never really noticed how similar it is to cheating. I know how weird that sounds, but listen. you get a virus on your laptop and the first thing you think is like “wtf did I...
I dont know how to "talk to someone"
that or I forgot. either way I feel screwed.
What a life Rihanna has
bradleycooper: Chris Brown hits her Eminem lies to her Drake can’t remember her name
day 09 - your beliefs
fear takes over; it consumes and paralyzes you to the point where you can’t function. doors that are supposed to remain open are locked by fear of what’s behind them. great leaders become cowards and if enough fear gets in, strengths are no better than that one weakness. love is vulnerability; it’s being open enough that they know what builds you up and what tears you down....
SJSU SF State CSULA
day 08 - a moment
this just happened. I’m freaking out. trying to figure out how to change my relationship status on fb and for some reason it won’t let me. he texts me. I know he knows, or will help me figure it out. so for the first time in a while, I call him for help. he laughs a little and makes jokes, because that’s how he is, then tells me to wait because he’s turning on his laptop....
Healthy Relationships Week @ SLz
To start things off… All San Lorenzo Students will have their name written on a heart and will be up around campus in A, B, C, or D halls. Please only take yours and refrain from taking down names of students you do not know. Additional half hearts are missing their pieces! Mend the broken hearts by putting the message fragments together to complete positive Healthy Relationships messages!...
day 07 - your best friend
when the pedal comes down to the metal, my best friend is my sister (sorry stace, you know you’re my #1 not considering blood) and my best friend just moved out. to be honest, I was trying to avoid crying. I did all that last time. I was typing up something for leadership when she said bye, so being distracted was easy. I know I need to accept that we’re growing up, I also knew she...
I hope it haunts you. I hope you watch it another 100x and let it replay in your mind. I hope you remember the words and my voice echoes in your head through out the day. the best part about it all, is that I will easily forget, but you—you can’t forget me. and it is being free of that kind of control that gives me the upperhand. sleepeazy baby. I know I am. (:
Right now, it's a sleepover with 19 people.
I still haven't forgotten my exboyfriends' numbers
once you memorize that kind of thing, it’s kind of hard to forget.
my choices were tattooed into my vulnerability →
I think I know what you saw. I got word you saw the video. I’m not sorry. all the facts are true, nothing fudged. if you’re angry about the fuck you, you may recall me saying it to your face. the conversation was quoted. I admit I’m tense right now and shaking with the thought of what you must’ve felt seeing this. I’m still not sorry. my words stand, my stanzas uphold...
I had california king bed stuck in my head all day
trying to grow the fuck up and not let myself get wrapped up in a fantasy, then here it comes while I’m sleeping to trick me. going to chill. let shit happen. hmmph. goodmorning tumblr, I spend too much time with you.
86 more days of high school.
oh hell yeah. I wish I knew wtf I was doing after all this tho.
for a second, I started to believe everything you ever said; about being...– epiphanies
day 06 - your day
woke up. ate breakfast. got ready for work, got there @ 1. realized I didn’t work til 2 -_- sat in Sabrina’s section the entire time sipping on a raspberry iced tea and doodling pictures, chitchatting with my coworkers. worked @ 2. didn’t expo, but kind of wanted to. hosted. glanced at the superbowl. didn’t really do much at work. annoying coworker came in, I got annoyed....
tumblr’s all twitterpated. or tumblrpated. idk. I hope you saw bambi. oh wells. work was alright. getttttinnnn moneyyy. fuck the rest.
International Living Program
kaleenacourtney: Our applications are being sent on Tuesday. It feels good to know that everything is almost done. Now we just have to wait on the response. *deep breath. Wooosaah. YAAAAAY IM SO EXCITED FOR YOUUUU.
remnants of 2010.
hella not who you used to be. slowly and surely becoming that guy. I guess we’ll never be friends again. this will probably be the last time you find me blogging about you. good riddance, thank you for being the reason why I didn’t love you.
day 05 - your definition of love.
vulnerability. ’nough said. honestly, that’s all it is. being able to be completely naked and yourself with. the other magical stuff comes later. I believe all people are closed off to some extent in some way, and it’s the person who can get the furthest in is the one you’ll be with the longest, simply because they know more things that are wrong about you than anyone else,...
Late Night Ponderings
I think I hate facebook now. I hate seeing the updates of people I used to talk to, idk why it’s annoying. part of me feels like I’m angry at them for it not working out, but it’s both our faults. I can’t help my annoyance. it’d be too childish to delete them, so I choose the next childish option and just avoid them. when I put it in perspective, I don’t care as...
day 04 - what you ate today
okayokay. so when I woke up, mama asked me if I wanted her to make me a sammich. I was still half asleep when she said “I’ll make you a ham sandwich!” to which I should’ve protested because I hate ham, but I figured I’d make it work later. I ate the sammich in 3rd period because Ms. Coughran really doesnt care when I have a feast on my desk. then at lunch, I had a...