paperjam

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July 2010

12 posts

2:29pm (Paris Time)

It was worth every second of it. I don’t know what I loved more, Europe, or my amazing group. They remind me that you can find good in everybody, no matter how they may seem at first. Ugh, my heart aches a little I miss them all so much. Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy as hell to be home, I just wish something’s didn’t end. I wish EIL picked people frm Cali so I could...

while playing catch phrase “she’s a survivor of the holocaust ! wait…. no, SHE DIED ! SHE DIED !” lmao. the answer was Anne Frank.

2:09am (France time)

I wonder how many blogs begin with “I can’t sleep.” well anyway I can’t sleep… I wish I weren’t sleeping alone tonight. I’m not gonna go into detail about everything I miss because it gets old, the complaining and what not. I wonder if anyone besides my brother &stacey read this. guess I’ll never know. I’m very sad paulie had to go home, I...

I wanna yell at you. tell you everything I’m feeling &i want to rewind frm all this fucked up shit &go back to when you were telling me how much you liked strawberrycheesecake icecream &i said I did too. now it’s all froyo &idk where you are. hmph

people say the weirdest shit

girl: who’s your favorite band or whatever? me: uhh, don’t really have one (doesn’t everyone say that?) but I like motion city soundtrack and metro station. then there’s jack johnson, john legend, &john mayer. I love drake lately. girl: ohh… (obviously clueless to these artists) I like evanescence. me: cool.. girl: have you heard call me when you’re...

I swear it on the stars

and those mean a lot to me. I felt something. it was one of those, in all the places in all the world with all the people, I ended up here with you, ici et maintenant (here &now). I have not felt like that since… what ? john urbano ? it just fit. It doesn’t bother me in the slightest if it were just for that moment that it fit, but I’m just happy that feeling...

I hate how hard it is to forget phone numbers, and usernames… and text messages… &the way someone smells &how their hands feel, their voice sounds. I hate how quickly it all goes, tangibility questionable. I hate how we’ve changed, please come back home.

youthefcknbessst

vneck, boxers, chillin w/ the xbox on. that’s when you the cutest shit, I hope that you don’t take it wrong. I can’t sleep. I feel good. haven’t been emo at all. I’m partly glad I’m not missing someone while I’m here or worrying about them. it would be nice however to have someone there to wait for me at the airport when I get home. I miss my friends a...

I have 13min before we go to the beach. let’s see what comes out. random blurs or constant thoughts ? let’s go both. I miss falling asleep on the phone. I want to explain myself too much. I’ve been thinking back to my childhood when I used to think I had everything made bc I had my whole family. my biggest fear used to be losing my mom, dreading the day I had to become one...

I'm in france, where you @ ?

I effing love this place. the keyboards are so weird, I can’t say that enough. I miss my trio, my jugsapoppin, my sister, and my chelbo. I’m getting closer with my group, and I think I’m going to watch eclipse in french if it rains again soon. I can’t wait to tell all my stories when I get home. you know how I am. hope everyone is well. pls fb me ): toodles for now.